The Unfundamental Conversion

I Lost My God Innocence

March 20th, 2016 | Posted by Lana Hope in Faith | SE Asia - (19 Comments)

“You HAVE changed!” a friend from my old Christian circles said to me three years ago, when I first came back from South East Asia, alone and frightened. We were outside a popular late-night burger joint in my home state. When pressed, I had spoken my opinion about evangelical hot button. Apparently my friend had heard that I …
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At my old church in South East Asia, we prayed one prayer more than any other. Or maybe two. But there was one prayer that kept coming up over and over – Lord, let your kingdom come, on earth. Or, let your glory fall on this place. I have a problem with the whole idea …
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175 Freedom for a Man

R.L. Stollar has nailed it once again. And I  Here he talks about the days when instead of praying, “help me with my unbelief,” he screams out this instead: But it’s even harder when you are like me, when you daily wrestle with depression and suicidal thoughts. When life isn’t just filled with pain …
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This post is a response to What is the Purpose of International Missions? Or rather, this is no response at all, because I am broken, doubting the words I choose to share, binding up the wounds I make, rejoicing when I don’t rejoice, and pleading out the gospel I fail to live. This is simply …
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Gospel I Love

July 23rd, 2013 | Posted by Lana Hope in Missions - (6 Comments)

As a kid the gospel in my life was an outward proclamation. The gospel was a verbal truth that set people free. You preach in order that people might hear. You confess in order to be set free. Romans 10 was my motto. As I got older, this became more and more hollow in my …
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Drain boy

phill.d / Foter / CC BY-NC-ND It strikes me as odd that when I wrote my initial post on this series, I had not read or listened to Peter Rollins, yet he articulates perfectly the existential battle and uncertainty that I feel (and wrote in that post) as a Christian in a postmodern error. Peter …
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I read Dan Fincke’s blog on the atheist channel of patheos because I enjoy philosophy and also because I do not wish to make the habit of letting my faith go unchallenged. Even though I am a theist, I enjoy atheism. In so many ways I wish I could be convinced that God did not …
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Karen Hilltribe boy making offering to forest spirits

Many of my Christian friends insist that the reason they know God exists is because of a spiritual experience or spiritual sensation. They say those who don’t believe in God, do not believe because they lack an experience (except Calvinists say unbelievers lack both the experience of God and God’s favor). In philosophy we would …
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I Saw A Blind Boy See

April 25th, 2013 | Posted by Lana Hope in Faith | Missions - (7 Comments)

I talk a lot about faith and doubt. For me the two go hand in hand. I think I am like the Israelities. I can see a miracle, and then turn around and again, doubt God. But. I saw a blind person see. His teacher had beat him against the wall until he was blind …
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I grew up in an evangelical church where we believed gifts of the spirit (such as prophesy and healing) did not exist. I believed in sola scriptura, meaning God spoke through his written word, the Bible, not through visions, dreams, etc. The hypocritical part of the story is we would laugh at our Christian cultist …
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