Hi, I’m Lana. I grew up a fundamentalist, a Calvinist, and a part of the Christian homeschool movement. Then I moved to Asia to live overseas, and I questioned it all.
I blog about many issues, most especially life after fundamentalism, life overseas, and Christian apologetics.
One unique feature of my blog is the philosophy posts. Most philosophy bloggers are either conservative, evangelicals or atheists. I am blog about Christian philosophy from the Christian perspective, but I try to do so with the rigor that most evangelical scholarship lacks.
I was a homeschool kid, and learned to accept my fate of homegrown food, white sandals, dresses, and an existence never leaving our own little woods. My childhood was gendered, I was shoved through ATI conferences and gatherings, and I was undereducated in some subjects.
I escaped to college, but I remained closed minded throughout the experience. I had no idea how to handle myself socially, and the material I was taught terrified me. After college, I had a meltdown, and it was a long winter of self-reflection and depression.
Then one summer, I packed my bags and headed to SE Asia. My soul was touched in a powerful way that summer, and I came back home and left the states indefinitely.
And then, through three hard but wonderful years living among missionaries, caring for teenagers as broken as me, and wandering through slums and villages, my whole world deconstructed. First it was my belief in Calvinism that crumbled, then protestant hell, then the protestant view of the Bible, and slowly everything else.
I have a M.A. in philosophy and study philosophy in the university. My blog here is an attempt to apply what I learn in more practical and concrete ways that are meaningful to our moral and spiritual journeys.
This blog is a journey
As you read in this blog, keep in mind that it is a journey. I do not agree with everything I wrote here, because I am a work in progress. In this blog, you will find my more universalist phase, and very orthodox posts. You will also find different perspectives on philosophy. Read my blog like a spiritual journey, not a treatise for what I believe and don’t believe.
Some Popular Posts
“No, Who’s Jesus? He doesn’t live Around?” – I Dialogue that shook my belief in Calvinism.
“We Failed Her. We Didn’t Tell her About Jesus.” – My journey in Cambodia that shook my belief in hell.
Traveling and Dispelling Political Fear – How travel dispelled my political fears.
I started this blog in 2012 while still living in Asia. At that time, I had no idea that popular homeschool alumni blogs like Love Joy Feminism existed. I just knew that I need to blog my story. Since then, I have received hundreds of emails, including hate mail from those who no longer accept me and positive messages from others who use to know me. Through the homeschool alumni networks, I have connected with homeschool alumni and recovering fundamentalists from all over the world. I am grateful.
A Life Overseas published one of my articles.
You can also find my bucket list here.
If you’d like to follow along, you can subscribe by email below, or follow me on twitter @wideopenground. If you want to chat or share your story on my blog, email me at wideopenground[at]yahoo[dot]com.
I try to offer a safe place for people of all religions or beliefs. I grew up where religion divides people, and I am not interested in walking that road again.
I hope you leave a bit encouraged. Thank you for taking the time to visit me here at Wide Open Ground.
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Names of people on the blog are generally changed for privacy. I also do not use my full name here.